Competent

In reading Leslies blog, I was inspired.
I like that you chose to do this, and so I follow. I have picked a word to describe something that I learned or have felt in 2008.

com·pe·tent
1: proper or rightly pertinent 2: having requisite or adequate ability or
qualities 3: legally qualified or adequate 4: having
the capacity to function or develop in a particular way ; specifically : having
the capacity to respond (as by producing an antibody) to an antigenic
determinant

I feel that I have learned a lot this year. In the struggles we face in life, and living. I am amazed at how we have the ability to adjust and change, in such grow as people. I feel that I have become more than I ever thought I would be. I am in awe that I have worked two jobs for nearly 5 months now, and maintain them as though it's second nature. I still keep up with the kids as much as humanly possible; and keep trying to put in my fair share of the housework and other tasks that we face on a daily basis.
I started WalMart under the impression that it would be a temporary fix to a temporary problem. And now looking at it, the problem and the solution are not as temporary as we first thought. I have moments when I really get depressed because the reality is, that if I do not work 2 jobs, we do not have security. So I work them, and that is that. But it's the ability to function, and keep going....even when I am depressed that surprises me. It sometimes seems like I am a failure, and that my efforts are miniscule. But then I have to remember that we are all capable and competent. We can all work to change that in which we do not like. Making it what we desire. We have to make a change to get a change.

I really feel that 2009 will bring us good things and help us find our way. ALL of us!